this past weekend has been a stressful one, and filled with drama… God is really breaking my family. it’s so clear to me, that God wants them to see that there is nothing to live for in life besides for Himself, but they are so blind to it… how will they ever see that no matter how much success my brother and i turn out to be, they will still not be happy? and how will my brother see that the reason he feels so miserable and lost right now is that void in his heart where God should be right now? how will they see that without being set free by the blood of Christ, no one can know true joy?

He spoke to me today through Scripture. it was quite random how i happened upon these verses, but nonetheless they are relevant, and i know it’s what God’s saying to me, my dad, my mom, and my brother:

“unless the Lord builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain.
unless the Lord watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
it is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for He gives to His beloved sleep.”
-Psalm 127:1-2

but what can i do except pray??? it’s so frustrating, knowing that what i say does not matter to them… but i know that when i am weak, then i am strong, and Christ’s power is made perfect in my weakness… somehow.